I still have dreams also. Sometimes, most of the times I wake up so upset and I cannot remember much. A lot of them are about Bethel which is strange as being at Bethel was probably the best time of my life as being a JW though there were a lot of problems there I admit it was still the best time for my marriage and it was the least stressful times in the congregation as my husband was not being used so much. But then we did get mugged and there were tons of problems at Bethel its self. Life in this religion was never easy.
In my dreams Bethel becomes so dark and upsetting which I do not get because in real life its not that way. The room we lived in at Bethel had more light then the house we live in now but in my dreams it is always so very, very dark. I just cannot get the lights to turn on also in my dreams I am trapped there. In real life I was not wanted there my overseer told me that to my face they just wanted my husband and I was added baggage to them that cost them money. So I do not know what my dreams mean. I have also had dreams of the elders trying to get me into JC's sometimes they win and I have to go other times I tell them to back off or else I will sue and they do, they become afraid of me and leave me alone. Those time I wake up feeling so powerful.
I wish the dreams would stop as most of the time they are just upsetting.
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